I`m aggressive, I`m angry and I let it out- this is a frequent situation:

me: Where are the keys? .......(searching but not finding them)
Fuck, where are they?...(I`m in hurry)

he: I don`t know...

me: Fucking shit! Damn it! Where the fuck are they? (I get angry, am pissed off...start to kick things around)
I cant stand this fuckin messy shit.!!!!....(at this point sometimes i begin to threw things)

he: Hey, what`s up?

me: NOTHING!!

he (cant stand this): now, what`s the problem? I can´t simply ignore that you`re angry...

me: Just let me....I need that.....I don´t mean to hurt you....It`s just MY problem.

he: I cant cope with such situatuions- youre in rage and I can`t help...

me: You CAN`T help! Just leave me! Ignore it! Ignore me!
Here lies the KEY.

franz had a crush on her ever since he knew her. I realized at our art-club, when she stand us nude and he drew a close-up of her breasts....
he confessed me afterwards, that he found her really attractive.
I found her boring first. Yes, she was nice, but somehowe stiff. Then, i learned to know her, and also to admire. On her birthday party she let me overnight at her. The others were gone, we had a nice talk, and as she prepared herself for bed- i had a glipse of her perfect belly. Though i saw her nude before, now i realized how pretty she really was. Or perhaps it was just that we´ve had a good talk, understood each other...
I remember she woke me up...I was sleeping face to face to her and was holding her head tenderly, i did that not conciously...i`m used to do that when I sleep with Franz.
But she got really hot as she said- and so I turned away.
But I couldn`t sleep that night, because I wanted her....

A month afterwards- we had our club again. We drank wine- she was very drunk and happy...i was rather tired. I just wanted to know if that rumor that one friend spread around was true: if she had an open relationship with his boyfriend. She said yes. We said- we too. She asked if it functions for us- because they let it be theory till now...we said yes.
I guess that broke all barriers for Franz. I thought- that now he could try if he had a chance. But I was really to tired to seduce her. I went to bed. I heared them laying tarots, and Franz hesitating and confessing his attraction to her...

Then they came to bed. Franz asked if he could lie to her, and caress her. She said- as you like. I heared deep breaths, stroking bodies. I thought- what to do. Do they want me to join?
I got excited...and I didn`t wanted to be outside. So I joined.
It was nice. She was sooo fragile, very thin, I liked her smell. She was somehow shy, and set limits- no, it`s getting too much...sorry.
It was nice, but I guess I wanted more. I wanted to dive in her sex, to do her pleasure. I was a bit disappointed....

Than in the middle of the night- i was half slepping- i felt a hand between my legs. It was tendelry circulating, pressing my clit. I was all wet. I thought- oh, she really knows....what I like, what women like. I wanted to touch her body, touch her breasts. I feel her strong belly...and then...her hairy nipples? Huh? oH, it`s not her- it´s franz! I was astonished...it was so funny! ^.^ i felt his dick- and he fucked me hard....we hadn´t sex for a long time...
The idea, that she heard us beside, was turning me on...i wanted she heard us, watched us secretly. He fucked me hard, and came all over me, i felt his warm wet cum on my back, and his hands smudged it in my skin.
I like that. I`m so filthy....
I just wished she saw that...