I intended to stay ten days in Swiss. I intended to have fun and a lot of sex....
I left Swiss after three days.
I thought being with fab in lausanne would be like in vienna. I thought it would be a similar, if even better experience. I thought he knew i came just for fun, i don’t wanted a relationship.
My expectations were:
1.) good sex
2.) nice city
3.) relaxation
4.) drinking with alex

Nothing fulfilled.
2.) The city was boring (exept from the really astonishing beautiful view of Geneve lake).
4.) Alex, my friend from Japan and Fabs elder brother was not the same. He got a businessman, he talked just about his work- he was hanging out just with his girlfriend Naike- he got boring.
3.) relaxation- i could have better at home...
1.) well i had sex. but it was completely different. i realized from the beginning that fab actually didn’t wanted to. And i had to turn him on- sometimes it made me feel like i'm raping him.
I was enthusiastic about sucking his cock.
He has such a big, thick beautiful dick-
I really thought i will become his dick-worshipper! ^.^
a shame he didn’t knew how to use it-
having one, two minutes fucks isn’t really satisfying...
and he never thought to satisfy me, he never thought after having an orgasm, to give me one...

and then he said- he cannot have sex without feelings, without loving somebody....
i think he really didn’t knew what he wanted.
I was disappointed and frustrated and decided spontanically to go back to vienna- and let my booked busticket expire..it was the best decision i could make. The train ride back was beautiful- passing by the alpes and the landscapes was like in a movie...i’d been watching for 12 hours.

Afterwards- i thought it wasn’t so bad being in Swiss after all, even for his three disappointing days. Finally i like Fab...Though I think I couldn’t love him...It was nice to talk and fuck with him. Next time i shouldn’t hide my real intentions: and make clear that i wan’t sex-tourism!