as i was in Japan i had an agreement with my boyfriend Franz, with whom i'm nearly 6 years together. we had our up and downs, our crises, that made us strong. but as it came to my exchange year in Japan, we redefined what ment for us :
LOVE and TRUSTing (fidelity).

- ment beiing true or abide to somebody, beiing true physically
or mentually?
does fidelity included our body?

for the most of us it does. but we decided not for us.
why should we stick to overcomed concepts of fidelity, to social conventions, if we knew it made no sense to us?

one year seeing each other was unbearable.
we had our own daily lifes, and it was just a matter of time that one or the other met an interessting attracting person.
why should we refuse ourselves a sexual andventure?

what really love ment to us was:

doing the other pleasure,love him so much to make him feel pleasurable, even though one was not the source of giving pleasure oneself.

it was crossing borders. this consept seemed so nice to us.
theory always does. but we knew that emotions, possesive feelings, feelings of jealousy, lost and ignorance -would come and coping with them was difficult. how raffinate our concept was, it was just rational, just in our head, and our emotions would be diffrent....
you are put back by your emotions to the stadium of an helpless baby- crying for food, caress, love...they are just human and natural, so it doesn't help to surpress them...

the funny thing was- we did this agreement, and in the year nobody made a chance of it. but we talked about, who we would like to seduce or fuck *lol* ^.^

so i learned how to deal with my feelings.
speaking about them was a good solution. even if someone felt jealous- it's normal. for the most couples this topic is taboo. i appreciate really the fact that i can talk freely and without fear with franz about everything.
THANK YOU, MY LOVE. (^3^)/

Year 2006 started with many new (S) experiences.
wow.wow.wow!!! just one week, and there happened so much -this year will be certaintly significant.

yesterday, christa, one of my best friends was visiting me at home. franz was here, and me and christa were already very drunk. i started to seduce her a little. i knew, that franz would nothing but welcome a new sexual experience- and what man wouldn't like to have an adventure with two women ^.^
i reached my goal succesfully. the wine gave me courage- and after 2 hours i was lying with christa in bed, franz watching our passionate kisses, how we stroked each other, undressed before his eyes. he was amused, and soon he joined us.

i never thought that christa had such an opened sexuality- she told me, that it's her third time with a women- and she just has the desire, from time to time, caressing a nice soft body of a women. what should i say? for me it was the first time, having a women and a menage a trois- and it was fantastic! touching her soft skin, playing with her perfectly formed big breast was a SENSATION! and she was the best kisser i've ever had. i became addicted to her toung, and her soft full lips...hmmm....now i know what men feel loving a woman. i wasn't jealous at all- because christa atrracted me and franz, us both- and we were sharing the same feeling.

it was an unforgetable night, we don't really had hardcore sex, and it was all somehow naive, joyfoul, natural. not like
following a imaginary screenplay of a porn/erotic movie.

THANKS CHRISTA!