whaa.....life is hard now.

im in massive debts- minus 800 euro, and there will come new ones- i have to pay for the studies, for my over 200 mobile phone bill, and for living....

living spartanic and saving money is not the problem for me.
im trained after one year in japan...

the problem is- i would work right now if i hadnt to write on my seminar work, which is priority number one....i get for this a degree...heheh...and its lots of work...
i have to transcribe 3 hours of an interview, and translate it and analyse it (for just 2 minutes transcribing, i sat 2 hours!!)
and read 10 books.....and i have 3 weeks............ufff.....
i hope to manage that....
but because i tend to be over-careful, im slow....
i wanted to read at least 100 pages per day, but made just 20- because i take notes beside, it costs me hours...

i have to do it more effectively and ergonomically....

and i want to have sex....
the advantage of a good relationship is that you have regurarly sex....and i couldnt live without (guess thats why i got so depressed in japan)

on saturday i kissed and flirted with 3 boys on my party- but noone had the courage to go further....and i was sooo fucking horny! perhaps i was too offensive...men want to conquest women, right? and if women change the roles- men are mostly perplex and dont know how to handle it.....
hey boys, girls just wanna have fun!!